This is one of the most fundamental and irresolvable problems in a
person’s life, in sense that there is no final resolution for this problem at
all.
Our entire life and every moment of it is one or another choice
entailing the whole spectrum of other choices and so on to infinity. In fact,
when someone says "I have no choice…” - in that sentence there is no
humiliating acceptance and a real lack of choice, but decision (i.e. CHOICE) to
address this possibility to someone or something else.
The most dramatic and outstanding event of every life is the death.
This subject has not been at the focus of my attention until one day
this phrase come into my head in all its odd integrity. And it stuck there as a
kind of definition. Since my own experience tells me that no thought comes
without a reason, then I decided that this case is worthy of attention or, at
least, some consideration.
Everything written here has been received by integral package of
awareness during the meditation. I just tried to write it down more or less coherently
and consistently.
"Jeshua, you've been in our world, lived here. You have gone
through what you have, although I think that we'll never know what really has
been. If it's possible I'd like to talk to you and ask you some que
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This stairway is like a spiral down into a deep well. The deeper I dive
down into the memory, the darker. The first several turns are yet well
illuminated by today's light, but the deeper, the harder it is to make out
something.
There are people who spend most of their life in twilight of this
staircase, choosing a site for themselves in the relative distance from today's
light and hiding there like in a bomb shelt
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There was no time. It has been something, rather - 4 or 5 PM, when the
Sun doesn't go down yet, but not already broiling. Though, the Sun is never
broiling here. It came to be that when creating this place I never cared about the
weather, so it remains almost the same all the time.
The only radical shift had happened at the very beginning, when I
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